We’ve all been there. You know the place. It’s where desperation and anxiety starts to overtake faith and hope; leaving you longing for what you once had, even though you know it was, and still is bad for you. It’s what we have in common with the Israelites.
“That night all the members of the community raised their voices and wept aloud. All the Israelites grumbled against Moses and Aaron, and the whole assembly said to them, “If only we had died in Egypt! Or in this wilderness! Why is the Lord bringing us to this land only to let us fall by the sword? Our wives and children will be taken as plunder. Wouldn’t it be better for us to go back to Egypt?” And they said to each other, “We should choose a leader and go back to Egypt.” ~ Numbers 14:1-4
The Israelites wanted to go back to Pharaoh and Egypt where they were slaves and badly mistreated. After escaping with the help of Moses, they wandered in the wilderness discouraged for forty years in route to the Promised Land. If you’ve spent any amount of time in church in your life, you know the story.
The journey should’ve be an eleven day trip. Several of them died out there without seeing, and receiving God’s best for them. They complained often about everything, including God’s Holy Manna He sent from Heaven when they were hungry. The reason many of them seriously contemplated going back to Egypt was because it was at least better than where they were, or so they assumed.
Many of you are in a similar situation. You have finally stepped out on faith and left a toxic job, relationship or are chasing a lifelong dream. You have become so discouraged you’re ready to go back with your tail between your legs to where you were, because it was better in your mind than where you are seemingly stuck now. You’re in your wilderness
Whatever you do, DON’T GO BACK! I believe going back to your Pharaoh gives the Lord a bad reputation. Since you rightfully stepped out on faith in Him, by going back you’re essentially saying “God wasn’t enough to help me see it through.” We all know that’s never the case.
Returning to the situation will give your oppressor greater power over you to harm, mistreat and shortchange you. They will view you as someone who can’t get along without them. Therefore the conditions will be worse than before you left, because they now know you’ll put up with anything, just to have…well, anything. Even if it’s less than you deserve.
For example: returning to work at a job where you got passed over for a promotion time after time and your work was never appreciated, will only cause them to value you less because they know you’re settling. The same goes for reuniting with a bad girlfriend/boyfriend/spouse or friend. They know you’ll accept the abuse, neglect and manipulation because now you’re signing up for it. It’s not a surprise now, you knew exactly what you’re getting and they will try to get away with doing worse.
“As a dog goes back to its vomit, so a fool repeats his stupidity.” ~ Proverbs 26:11
More importantly, going back to Pharoah shows you have a lack of faith and trust in the Lord about the hopes and visions for your future He put in your heart. There’s a reason God gave you that dream or made a way for you to get out of that situation, relationship or job. It’s because He truly has something better for you.
It’s not happening yet because either you’re not ready, or He’s not finish readying the next stop for you. Instead of giving up and going back to the “devil you know”–as I’ve heard many say–focus on preparing yourself for what you expect the Lord to do. The time passing by isn’t to hurt you, but help you be at your best when you get to your Promised Land. Remember, the Israelites’ Promised Land was already occupied. They had to wait, and be ready to face the challenges to come with taking it over. The same goes for you. You know the saying “new level, new devil!” Take this time to get yourself ready for that.
Another VERY IMPORTANT note, don’t complain too much. Read Numbers 14: 20-45 to see how the Lord dealt with them for doing so. Just from reading, it’s clear, you don’t want those kind of problems.
Whatever you do, DON’T GO BACK to Pharaoh.